August 8th, 2010

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Day 2, at night

And there I am, sitting on some silly wooden chair typing my memories on Word because the internet keeps failing. The internet has been failing since 7 o clock, Im not likely to get bored while reading a book, but I fear my books will be all read soon.

Its funny, because I can already sense the fights coming. I don’t think my sis and brother will get along very well, neither will I and my dad. 3 weeks, one house, one family. Normally this wouldn’t be a problem, but when my family is around, this might be your worst nightmare.
My sis and brother are sleeping now, well, they are trying too xD I sleep in a room with my sis and brother now, I don’t really mind doing that but it still feels “different” I don’t really have my own space to fall back to when I feel bad.

Im having astma apparently. I got diagnosed with it last week, I don’t really know what it means, I only know how it feels. No matter how much you breath, the oxygen doesn’t reach your longs. Therefore I breathing really strong, which causes that my sister and brother cant sleep. So I have to wait till they sleep, If I want to go to sleep.

I know this is like the stupidest thing in the world, but I miss my boyfriend. He’s everything to me. I don’t even know how to express my feelings… I just hope he feels the same for me! Normally he stalks me with cute messages and aww-ing sentences, but he hasn’t in a week.. it makes me feel so lonely, because I need them so much right now. Im 1000 km away from him, I want him right here, right now. I don’t care how. I just want his warm arms around me and his voice to calm me down.

Boy I love you so much..I hope you will somehow find out.

Now! Up to the real stuff, this blog was meant to tell about my holiday, not about my mentalstatus or strange feelings! What have I done today? I ate lovely breakfast in some hotel called Parkhotel Leiser, we stayed there during the night because it took too long to get here in one day. We left at 9.00 Friday 6th of august. I cant tell you much about the car drive, because I slept most of it. Where I was, oh yea, breakfast! We ate there around 9 o clock in the morning, I cant really remember what I ate exactly but it was, fresh yogurt with fruits and yogurt from some little package, croissant, one with and one without chocolate. I didn’t ate tiny loafs of bread, I can eat enough here every day! And I ate cherries and blackberries and strawberries, actually I ate a breakfast for like 3 persons:P Ahh well who cares?:P I enjoyed it. But we headed back to the car and began our last hours of driving.

Im staying in some little village. Well actually there isn’t a village xD! Its just a few houses on a mountain, no church surprisingly! The nearest village is Steinach, which is about a 15 minute drive from here. I feel so left alone in the middle of nowhere, luckily I can see something of the modern society when I look out of my window. It’s the Brenner, which is a big road across the Alps. I adore it, it’s a beautifull brigde surrounded with pretty mountains. Oke, I will get tired of the view because I will soon feel locked inside the mountains, but common lets enjoy it when I still can;)

Have you ever eaten “pruimenvlaai”? Its really funny! Its like, sweet and very sour ! I kinda like it :$ although I don’t think many people will love it… I will find a picture when I will get my internet back, if I would ever get it back! I miss it. People. I am a girl brought up in a household which feeded (wtf is the past tence of that word? Feed fet fed ? XD ! I cant remember it, no internet to search for it, so please bear with me) well, I was trying to tell you in a pretty sentences that I was brought up with computers and internet, I just miss it.
Playing patience is really boring.. Ive been doing it all day long now.. Jurie has still not sms’ed me back.. I just want him xD! He he is more important than ( is it then or than? I feel so stupid now.. I cant even recall some simple grammar rules..) anything. I don’t freaking care if I got myself some internet or food, I just want him to be with me. Simple as that. You know, I wish I lived in the middle ages.. Things where simple back then.. Just work marry and get some damn children. I wish I could have that right now…

Im sorry for my hopeless talking, don’t mind skipping half of my complaints oke?:P
Goodnight people. I hope I can post this tomorrow morning..